Aaron’s Mom wants to start charging me $100 a week. Even if I were still working at McDonald’s like she thinks- I would not be making more than that. She KNOWS that I need to save money for LA! I am moving in exactly 2 months! What in the Hell? FUCK! Now I need to talk to my Parents and see if they will let me stay with them. That is a big fucking favor to ask. Now I feel like I can’t ask for the car help! I don’t get many big favors and I really don’t get enough nerves to ask them. fuckfuckfuck my anxiety is kicking in. FUCK! I don’t care if I am nannying. I cannot afford to pay her that. I knew she wanted me out of here. I knew it! First the shirt, then the comments, and THEN the garage shit, and now THIS? I don’t even cost anything extra to leave here. I use as little water and electricity as possible and I rarely eat any of her food. FUCK MY LIFE. 

• 200: My crushs name is: ummm
• 199: I was born in: California, 1992
• 198: I am really: stressed
• 197: My cellphone company is: verizon?
• 196: My eye color is: brown
• 195: My shoe size is: weird
• 194: My ring size is: between 5 and 7
• 193: My height is: 5' 9 (3/4)"
• 192: I am allergic to: Codeine, cats, dogs, pollen but I Ignore everything but the codeine part...
• 191: My 1st car was: :(
• 190: My 1st job was: coldstone creamery
• 189: Last book you read: the Secret Circle
• 188: My bed is: dumb
• 187: My pet: a kitty at my uncle's and a chihuahua at my parent's
• 186: My best friend: Kaitlyn! I also have Felicia and David!
• 185: My favorite shampoo is: Big Sexy Curly Hair
• 184: Xbox or ps3: xbox
• 183: Piggy banks are: fun
• 182: In my pockets: nada at the moment
• 181: On my calendar: lots of plans!
• 180: Marriage is: great! I plan to be married one day
• 179: Spongebob can: be my buddy :D
• 178: My mom: is so sweet
• 177: The last three songs I bought were? Mongo Push, Spread too thin, Okay Cupid
• 176: Last YouTube video watched: some hair vid
• 175: How many cousins do you have? wish on dad's side and a ton on mom's
• 174: Do you have any siblings? 3!
• 173: Are your parents divorced? yup, since I was 2
• 172: Are you taller than your mom? haha yup
• 171: Do you play an instrument? nah.. a little dabbling though
• 170: What did you do yesterday?
• [ I Believe In ]
• 169: Love at first sight: yep
• 168: Luck: sometimes
• 167: Fate: occasionally
• 166: Yourself: eh.
• 165: Aliens: nah
• 164: Heaven: yup
• 163: Hell: yup
• 162: God: mmmhhhm
• 161: Horoscopes: depends
• 160: Soul mates: yup
• 159: Ghosts: sometimes
• 158: Gay Marriage: of course.
• 157: War: ugh.
• 156: Orbs: nope
• 155: Magic: ick
• [ This or That ]
• 154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
• 153: Drunk or High: drunk unless it's a hookah buzz
• 152: Phone or Online: online
• 151: Red heads or Black haired: red!
• 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
• 149: Hot or cold: hot
• 148: Summer or winter: summer
• 147: Autumn or Spring: autumn
• 146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
• 145: Night or Day: night
• 144: Oranges or Apples: oranges
• 143: Curly or Straight hair: curly
• 142: McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonald's
• 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk
• 140: Mac or PC: mac
• 139: Flip flops or high heals: flops
• 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
• 137: Coke or Pepsi: coke
• 136: Hillary or Obama: obama
• 135: Burried or cremated: cremated
• 134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
• 133: Coach or Chanel: coach
• 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idc
• 131: Small town or Big city: small town
• 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target
• 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam
• 128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure
• 127: East Coast or West Coast: WEST COAST IS THE BEST COAST
• 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas
• 125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers
• 124: Disney or Six Flags: DISNEY!
• 123: Yankees or Red Sox: neither
• [ Here's What I Think About ]
• 122: War: sucks
• 121: George Bush: loser
• 120: Gay Marriage: no debate. it is right
• 119: The presidential election: annoying
• 118: Abortion: it is your choice
• 117: MySpace: hahahha
• 116: Reality TV: yeeeah has its good and bad sides
• 115: Parents: lol mine could be better but we can't change the past, eh?
• 114: Back stabbers: fuck 'em
• 113: Ebay: it can be annoying
• 112: Facebook: love hate
• 111: Work: ugh
• 110: My Neighbors: don't know them
• 109: Gas Prices: crap
• 108: Designer Clothes: depends
• 107: College: wish I was in college
• 106: Sports: love most of them
• 105: My family: it is dysfunctional
• 104: The future: scary
• [ Last time I ]
• 103: Hugged someone: earlier- Kaitlyn
• 102: Last time you ate: 2 minutes ago
• 101: Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: TURTLE! TODAY!
• 100: Cried in front of someone: ummm last night I teared up
• 99: Went to a movie theater: 1-2 wks ago?
• 98: Took a vacation: almost a month ago to Indiana
• 97: Swam in a pool: um? idk?
• 96: Changed a diaper: yesterday
• 95: Got my nails done: almost two years ago :(
• 94: Went to a wedding: last summer
• 93: Broke a bone: years ago
• 92: Got a piercing: 1.5 years ago
• 91: Broke the law: haha...haha last night
• 90: Texted: an hr ago
• [ MISC ]
• 89: Who makes you laugh the most: felicia
• 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: idk
• 87: The last movie I saw: the only one
• 86: The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: July 15th :)
• 85: The thing im not looking forward to: ummm... money issues as always
• 84: People call me: lyss
• 83: The most difficult thing to do is: save
• 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: yup
• 81: My zodiac sign is: aries
• 80: The first person i talked to today was: kaitlyn
• 79: First time you had a crush: idk?
• 78: The one person who i can't hide things from: ummmm Rae
• 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: 2 hrs ago
• 76: Right now I am talking to: no one
• 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: photography and idk
• 74: I have/will get a job:nannying then I will start City Year LA
• 73: Tomorrow: skatepark
• 72: Today: long
• 71: Next Summer: extra short this year
• 70: Next Weekend: idk
• 69: I have these pets: manny, kaia
• 68: The worst sound in the world: nail to chalkboard
• 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: aaron
• 66: People that make you happy: kaitlyn, Jared, Felicia, David
• 65: Last time I cried: last night?
• 64: My friends are: um look up
• 63: My computer is: macbook pro
• 62: My School: done
• 61: My Car: :(
• 60: I lose all respect for people who: are super negative... assholes... liars
• 59: The movie I cried at was: the lucky one
• 58: Your hair color is: brown with caramel
• 57: TV shows you watch: lots
• 56: Favorite web site: facebook
• 55: Your dream vacation: bahamas or italy again
• 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: idk.. I always get hurt.. bike accident?
• 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare
• 52: My room is: stupid
• 51: My favorite celebrity is: channing tatum
• 50: Where would you like to be: in LA already
• 49: Do you want children: yup! 1 boy and 1 girl
• 48: Ever been in love: ish
• 47: Who's your best friend: repetitive
• 46: More guy friends or girl friends: mix
• 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: skateboarding
• 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: jared
• 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: nope
• 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: yup
• 41: Have you pre-named your children: ish
• 40: Last person I got mad at: aaron
• 39: I would like to move to: Italy
• 38: I wish I was a professional: Photographer.. I mean I am but not as good as I'd like to be
• [ My Favorites ]
• 37: Candy: starburst
• 36: Vehicle: gti fahrenheit (VW)
• 35: President: idk
• 34: State visited: CA
• 33: Cellphone provider: verizon
• 32: Athlete: dylan reider
• 31: Actor: channing tatum
• 30: Actress: the pretty chick from the pretty little liars... can't remember her name atm
• 29: Singer: taylor swift
• 28: Band: counting crows or the dirty heads
• 27: Clothing store: american eagle or forever 21
• 26: Grocery store: qfc
• 25: TV show: the secret circle or weeds
• 24: Movie: the lucky one
• 23: Website: fb
• 22: Animal: cheetah or sea turtle
• 21: Theme park: disneyland
• 20: Holiday: halloween
• 19: Sport to watch: skateboarding
• 18: Sport to play: skateboarding
• 17: Magazine: seventeen
• 16: Book: idk right now
• 15: Day of the week: saturday
• 14: Beach: la jolla
• 13: Concert attended: counting crows
• 12: Thing to cook: stir fry
• 11: Food: mexican
• 10: Restaurant: ummm
• 9: Radio station: the end
• 8: Yankee candle scent: I prefer bath and bodyworks
• 7: Perfume: love bitten or vera wang
• 6: Flower: idk
• 5: Color: purple, blue, green
• 4: Talk show host: ellen
• 3: Comedian: BO!
• 2: Dog breed: huskies
• 1: did you answer all these truthfully? ¡Sí!

I feel so blessed right now! Last Sunday my Uncle and his girlfriend (I call her Auntie Mel because she was pretty much family well before my Uncle even met her) took my boyfriend and I out to dinner then bowling. Earlier in the night he asked me if I plan to save up for a car… I said that it is my top priority on my list right above getting a camera. He didn’t say anything… soon after we got to the bowling ally he sat down next to me and said “I am going to give you my camera.” My Uncle had purchased this camera so he can take stills when he worked on his last two documentaries… He has only used it for those two trips. I used this camera for at least 4 months of my senior year of high school. It was my favorite and it is the very same camera that I have done my best work with. I got it today! I am so appreciative to have such a supportive person in my life :). 

Oh! and what he gave me was a Canon Rebel Xsi EOS 450D with a 55mm lens, 300mm lens, promaster shutter release cable, and an awesome lower pro camera bag. :D